Górecki, “Remarks on Performing the Third Symphony” (2003), Polish Music Journal, Vol. 6, No. 2.
When liberals denounce using the words ‘cunt’, ‘nigger’, or ‘faggot’, it is not out of some sympathetic humanism. Rather, it is that they would rather solely be confronted with words cleansed of their historical materiality, that is, words with as little significance as possible, voided of significance. Aseptic words, words which cause no dis-ease, the capitalistic pseudo-virtue of comfort. Adorno: ‘Communication, the universal law of the cliché, proclaims that there is no communication anymore’. Meaning upsets, has the potential to cause revolution.
Had my last day of teaching at the lycée— pretty lonesome, I had three people say goodbye to me, one was a very sweet ‘Bonne continuation!’ which made me smile, and another ‘It was a pleasure working with you’. Even on my last day the teachers were still doing the thing: ‘Oh I meant to tell you I don’t need you today’.
I think thus far in my life this is the thing I’ve done I’m most proud of, seeing out the end of this contract, fulfilling my promise I made to myself to come back to Paris to live, speaking this language, meeting a few very kind, very great people (and many more shitty ones), and suffering through French bureaucracy. It’s difficult constructing a life, then having to dismantle it 8 months later. I wasn’t the best assistant, but I didn’t set out to be because in truth the assistantship is a pretense.
I know one day I’ll go back to that lycée, see the Rosny-sous-Bois mall, the café at Pontault-Combault, the same people will probably be on the train. I was a familiar face to them for a year. I don’t know if people ought to ‘touch’ each other, make some meddlesome ‘influence’, but sometimes maybe its enough just to be placed alongside another’s life.
The problem with the trope of gay self-hating is that it equates repression with hatred, which is naught but pop psychology. (For Freud of course repression has a necessary value.) When Deleuze and Guatarri write ‘there is no fixed subject unless there is repression’, is this not the precise dialectical turn? There will always have been repression when invoking the subject, the self’s tyranny of and over its self. What would this mean for those B-rate gay activists?
Cost of a year of undergraduate study in the EU
Welcome to England where we fucking hate young people
Dear England, you’re still way cheaper than the United States.
Susan Sontag, “On Paul Goodman”, Under the Sign of Saturn (Farrar, Straus & Giroux, 1980) 3.
Deleuze and Guatarri, Anti-Oedipus: Capitalism and Schizophrenia (University of Minnesota, 1983) 27.